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Thursday, 21 January 2016

If you want to find me...

 I have been writing...

for what seems like endless hours
moving into endless days
and I am feeling
 especially vulnerable 
along side feeling
a fiery strength of conviction, 
as I  write my heart
lay it down
open and exposed

 that you might find me
that you might see me
that you might know me

so strong am I
so willing
so steady and firm

so fragile am I
so unsure
so timid 
and in this place 

I can be found 
in the mystery of the morning 
when the break of day comes over the land
when the first breath of morning
and life again begins...

Love and Light and Shadows

Tuesday, 5 January 2016

The Three Signs before Christmas...

The Three Signs

It was a few days before Christmas,

when the signs came my way

I had not asked for them

And I was not expecting them.

They were indeed

an unexpected gift

The First Sign:

I was at Costco picking up some prints.

I go there often and

know the photo shop staff quite well

A young guy is there…maybe late 20’s early 30’s

English accent and I have not seen him before

He steps up to serve me and all is business as usual…

until the end

He looks at me and pauses…

then he asks me if I am spiritual…

There is a moment of hesitation as I find this a peculiar question

the hesitation quickly turns into a smirk as this has happened to me before

and I am curious as to why he is asking…


I say with a big smile on my face.

He asks me if he can share something with me.

I say, again, “yes!”

He proceeded to tell me that he sees a big tree….old….

with strong deep roots.

He goes on to say that in 2016 this tree is going to bare much fruit

He says to me,

“all you have been working towards will prosper this coming year.”

I thanked him.

 A slight bow of gratitude and knowing is shared between us

And then I left,

sat in my vehicle

and cried.

The Second Sign:

 This one happened at Winners…the same day

I had to pick up some last minute gifts.

The store is packed but they have all 11 cash registers going

so the line-up is moving quickly.

It was in this line up I experienced an “interesting” exchange

with a very intense, negative woman.

The story is not important

What was important was the familiar buttons her aggressive behaviour

pushed in me

I would say, very clearly and decisively, that she was of the bullying sort.

I watched myself as I did not react but instead

I paused and felt what was rising within me

a very familiar feeling

one that as a child took me over and into intense and sometimes

blinding fear.

I said to myself … “Feel it…sink and breathe into it…it is only a feeling”

I actually allowed it to come up and over my body

as I stood there with a smile on my face…

After this pause within myself,

as she continued on her rant,

I looked directly at her and quietly and calmly

said to her what I needed to say

and moved on.

I felt all the feelings

even the trembling in my belly

But it did not matter

It was not mine to take on or mine to make right

I moved on and left her in her cloud of negativity

as I basked in yet another Divine Sign

I left the store with a huge smile on my face

got in my car

and laughed out loud.

The Third Sign:

…the last one

took place at my home

As a Christmas gift to ourselves we canvased

three of our prints to hang in the living room…

they were the prints I was picking up early at Costco.

Three prints to replace the one.

As we took down the eagle print


petrified against the wall

perfectly intact with wings spread

was a beautiful moth.

Now Moth has played an important part in my self love healing

It was Moth who told me some years back

 that I would never understand her

or the part of her within me

 until I stopped longing to be the butterfly.

This was a huge lesson for me.

That I would be wise

to learn about and accept all parts of myself equally

and that, even in what I could not see as beautiful,

there was indeed beauty.

It felt to me,

like this offering was not only a reminder

but a declaration in that I was doing just that…

learning to love all the parts of me

even those parts that

do not seem beautiful to me.

This was an amazing day for me…

I felt seen and loved by Spirit.

I felt The Creator watching over me and blessing me

I felt valued.

These signs…these blessings

helped me face a not so easy Christmas

they helped me walk with ease

one hand holding grief

one hand holding love.

What kinds of miracles 
have you been experiencing?

and Light...
and a Happy and Blessed New Year